Awkward!

Hey, good people! I hope everyone is doing well, moving their bodies, loving themselves, and celebrating their small wins! There is so much happening in the world, but make sure you indulge in moments of peace and joy! Some deep breaths, a small walk, or a moment of silence can reset your day.  

I hurt myself! I do not have a high threshold for pain, and I am a crybaby, so I was limping trying to get around. I went to visit my friend to get some Sorrel, and he told me I needed to go to urgent care. I arrived at urgent care, checked in, and the nurse was telling me about her issues with her lover. We are in the room, and the nurse is taking my vitals and having a heart-to-heart like I have known her all my life.  I told her she knows what she needs to do, and she will do what’s best for her when she is ready. I shared with her that there is someone who wants the same things and will treat her amazing, and that she must believe it is attainable for her! I am wishing reciprocal relationships for everyone in 2026 and beyond. I received my diagnosis, finished my chat with her, and headed home. I had to crawl up the stairs because it hurt so bad. The next morning was horrible! I made an appointment with the orthopedic doctor, and I screamed so damn loud in that office when I received a steroid shot. The needle was so long and very painful. My neighbors are the MVPs because they walked my dog, let me borrow some crutches, brought me smoothies, and checked on me. Please make sure you stretch and warm up those muscles.

People think because I am talkative and outgoing that I am not shy, but I am shy, and let’s add awkward for the cherry on top! Haha, so I met this guy over a year ago, and we went on four dates, and due to my awkwardness, he sent me the “take care” text.

Proof that I’m shy 😂

He was a nice, classy man, but his style of dress was a bit much for me. He dressed like a blast from the past with polyester shirts and wide-legged pants. I was taken aback by his attire on the first date, but we had a great time. After the third dinner date, I realized we would have a great time together, but I didn’t feel like our connection was progressing. He called me after the last date and asked how I was feeling about the connection, and I shared. He called one day and invited me over for pizza and a movie, and I accepted. His home belongs in a magazine because it is that beautiful! We drank wine, ate pizza, and talked. It was a great time. Well, it was getting late, and I was ready to go, so we walked down to the first level, and I bent down to put my shoes on, but when I stood up, he went in for a kiss. He is 6ft, and I am short, so his lips landed on the lower part of my eye and top cheek, and I damn near ran through the door trying to get out of the house. I am shy, and it was the most awkward moment ever. I grabbed my purse and was moving so fast you would have thought my heels had wheels. When I got in my car, I knew that he would never contact me again because of that awkward moment. I texted when I arrived home, and he texted me the next morning, saying it was great to get to know me and take care!

2026, A year later!

Him: Hey

Me: Ahhh, Hey

Him: How ya been?

Me: I’ve been great. How have you been?

Him: Fabulous! Miss me?

Him: Don’t lie

Him: lol

Him: Guess not lmao

Me: You must miss me lol don’t lie

Him: Oh, I miss your fine ass, alright

Him: Married yet?

I shared that I wasn’t married yet, but I am sure his dating life was thriving, or he was engaged because he was a great catch. He shared that after our last date, he went into a depression because I didn’t like him, and he really liked me and wanted to see where the connection could go. That really broke my heart!  I felt so bad, acknowledged his feelings, and apologized, but I was curious about what he’d meant when he told me that I didn’t like him, and the awkward kiss moment was the culprit. I shared that, even though I am outgoing, I am very shy and can be extremely awkward when I am getting to know someone. Dating is already tough, and my awkward ass had the man thinking it was something he did.

I learned that I was awkward and guarded when I was dating someone in my twenties who I really liked and I would talk about him all of the time to my friends and I just knew he could tell how I was into him, and one day he said “You are very hard to read and I can’t tell if you really like me!” WTF! 😳 😩I was blown away because if he hadn’t shared those details with me, I wouldn’t have been aware. I am grateful to him for sharing how he felt, because it helped me adjust and become more intentional with my actions when getting to know someone.

Wishing everyone on the dating scene genuine connections, fun dates, the courage to be vulnerable, and minimal awkward moments.

Until next time!

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